Faith over Fear

As I sit staring  out across an almost empty church I feel hurt, unbelief, frustration, even anger at the vacant pews.  I’m at a loss as to how Christian people can have so much fear that they would forgo going to church! I mean, the one you’re praying to, to keep you from getting this virus you will not go worship as he’s commanded!! It baffles my brain!! Afraid to come to church, but fine to go to the store, work, family get togethers and much more!  No, I feel most Christians are using this for an excuse to get away with something their heart has longed to to anyway! There is NO reason that a child of God should fear going to the Fathers House! None! And nope! I don’t care what the reasoning is! If   HE is able to save and keep your stinking soul, he’s more than capable to keep you safe from this virus!!!

Life as the Preachers wife can be a lonely one. I wish sometimes that I was back at home where I was raised having cookouts with lifelong friends, going on vacations together, getting to know their children. Alas, that is not what God had planned for me and oftentimes my heart yearns for the closeness of home. I’ve missed my brother And sister’s  children growing up, my best friend from youth has 3 children who wouldn’t even know my name.  I know we are doing what God wants, but I wonder if our church really understands what we have given up to serve here. Most of the time I don’t feel they even care. Maybe I’m just in a blah mood today! Having done all, STAND. So, here I stand.

Hi blog world, I guess this is where ya go when you really don’t want people to see what you are thinking!;) I wonder sometimes if we should move on. We’ve pastored for almost 14 years. It’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever been a part of. I feel like we take two steps forward a 4 steps back. I’m tired! There are weeks I feel like we are making a difference and the church really loves us! Then there are months where I feel they couldn’t care less! It’s disheartening to work, love, and pray for a group of people and not see fruits! Like even if they read this they wouldn’t feel sad that I have these feelings they would be mad that I had these feelings! It’s ok to walk all over my husband and I, but we have to smile and “ keep On  keeping on” without complaint. It’s so hard to love a people so much it hurts! I wish I felt they love and respected us. But , I don’t! God didn’t say it would be easy, but he did say he would never leave or forsake us! Until God moves us, we will fight for these people, their children, their souls!

Hey people who still read blogs. Whoever that may be. It’s been a weird year. Covid 19 has taken over leaving everyone in fear for their lives! Work, schools, even churches have closed just to “flatten the curve”. It all sounds nice but from what I hear we will still probably get the virus we have just given the medical field a little time to understand how the virus works, and how to treat it. So, after 7 weeks of “ sheltering in place” we finally get to go out and see the sun again.  Our first church service is tomorrow.  We went today and cleaned and sanitized everything. We don’t want any of our members to get sick.  Hoping they’re wrong about the virus and the hot summer will kill it off and we won’t have a rebound this fall.

It’s been a long time!

Wow! I was reading over all my old post, good memories. Things always seem to change. Some change is good. Some not so good. Life moves on. Friends you once held so dear, now, don’t hardly speak. Jobs come and go. People come into your life and then leave. People change, God never does.

A Yearly Update

I never ever get on the computer as you can tell, and the only reason I updated this is because of my sweet and precious daughter Laura... Nothings really going on. Just teaching the 3rd & 4th grade.



BTW- This is Laura! MWAHAHAHA!

New Van!!!

Well i haven't blogged in a long time, but I had to write about my new van. I love it !! It is a 2008 Dodge Caravan. It is red and awesome! I love it!!! I can't believe we have a new van. The Church was so nice to get it for us. We have such a great church. They are the best group of people. Have I said how much I love my new red Dodge Caravan. Thanks Church your the greatest.